Ben's POV
It's been almost two years since I've seen or talked to Lily. I've been thinking of her a lot more lately. I'm guessing because i was headed home in a few months.
I Layed in bed, staring at the photos of her with Myles. I felt betrayed by her and Myles. He was supposed to be my friend, and I thought Lily would have waited for me.
I scrolled and saw Brooklynn post "pack whore" under the photos. Well I see she hasn't changed at all.
The last photo got to me. Lily was asleep in Myles arms on her couch. I felt my wolf whimper but stayed silent. I could tell he was hurting.
Myles never mentioned that he has been hanging out with Lily when I talked to him over the years on multiple occasions. I felt like he was purposely hiding it from me.
The jealously overwhelmed me. I knew deep down I had no right to be jealous of her and Myles. I'm the one that stopped talking to her.
I pulled a picture out of my desk drawer. I wonder how she looked now In person. If her skin was lightly tanned and silky like it used to be.
I could tell by the picture of her and Myles dancing she never cut her long beautiful brown hair.
She looked so grown up in that picture compared to the photo in my hand of her standing in the field of wild flowers behind her house. She was breathtaking then and even more so now.
I still remember that day I took that photo. We were out in that field nearly everyday that summer. She was obsessed with the flowers. I wanted to remember her like that. I took my phone out and took the picture.
She still uses it as her profile. Warms my heart everytime I see it. Makes me feel like she still thinks of me. Least I would like to think so.
My dick instantly went hard just thinking about her and if her curves have changed and matured.
An image of her naked, wet and infront of me came to my mind. I would of made her mine that night if she would of let me. Back then I thought she would of been my mate. Now, I'm not so sure. She was an omega, after all.
I could almost smell her cinnamon and vanilla scent.
A knock on my door brought me back to my senses, and I shook the image out of my head.
When I opened the door Louise was standing there. Her eyes shifted down to my already harden dick.
"I see you're ready for me." She winked at me.
I couldn't help but get angry at her.
"Not today, Louise." I slammed the door in her face.
My wolf Hunter growled. He really disliked that woman. He would stop talking to me for hours every time I would have sex with her.
Yes, she was gorgeous with her platinum blonde hair and big blue eyes. She has curves in all the right places. She never turned me down anytime I wanted her.
I heard her yell and storm off.
Man, I knew I treated her like shit. But here lately, she has been annoying me more than ever.
She's constantly bringing up being Luna and trying to make plans. I just couldn't do it here lately.
The more I put it off, the more she seemed to bring it up. I think she could tell I was having doubts about taking her as my Luna.
Hunter never did that to Lily. I swear on a few occasions he would purr every time Lily touched him. She was the only person he let ride on his back.
I laid back in my bed, frustrated with why my dad so desperately wants me to be mated to Louise.
I know she comes from alpha blood, but still. I wish he would just want me to be happy. Instead of being so power-hungry. Even if the moon goddess wanted me to be with an omega. Not just any omega but my Lily.
I was stupid enough to have been sleeping with Louise the last two years.
At first, things were good, and it kept me distracted from thinking of Lily. But as time went out, I couldn't even get aroused without thinking of Lily first.
Flashback
I was two months into Alpha school when my dad came to visit. It wasn't common for us to have visitors unless it was a holiday or special occasion.
He looked angry. I knew instantly something was wrong. The first thing that came to mind was something happened to my mom.
The instructer yelled my name and excused me from the training grounds for the day.
My dad called me over.
"Ben, we need to talk about Lily."
My heart instantly sunk, thinking the worst could have happened. I prayed she was okay.
We headed to my dorm room so we could have more privacy. He started to pace before he finally spoke.
"Listen, Ben, I knew you had that little fling with that omega Lily over the years, but I thought it was just sex."
"I heard your mom talking to Raya about how you guys still talk every day."
"Son, your mom and Raya think you and Lily are fated mates, or you will be chosen mates, and that can't happen."
"Your mom may be okay with you taking an omega as a mate, but I am not, and it's not what's in the best interest of the pack."
"I think it's time you knew that your mom wasn't my fated mate or my first mate. My first mate was an omega from a neighboring pack. Your grandfather made sure I rejected her and took a Luna from a ranked member. Well, your mom."
I felt the anger rush through me all this time. I thought my parents were fated mates. They never said otherwise. But I guess I never asked either.
"Before you even ask, your mom doesn't know. She thinks I never found my fated mate."
"Dad, don't be upset for me asking this, but why did mom even take you as a mate then? She's always pushed true love and fated mates with me."
"Truth is Son. Your mom did find her fated mate. He was an omega at her old pack. She accepted him even though her father, your grandfather, objected to it. She was even willing to let them take away her status and rank."
"Why isn't she with him then?"
"Well , he was killed by rogues, they say. Him and your mother were only together a few weeks at that point. It broke her heart. But our fathers set us up a few weeks after he passed, and i eventually got her to fall in love with me. We were a better fit anyway. I had my eye on her for some time."
I couldn't help but wonder if mom's true mate was murdered on purpose. Just the way my dad said, I had my eye on her for some time. Made me cringe. I couldn't help but wonder if he had some part in that wolf's death.
My mind instantly went to Lily. He wouldn't have something done to her if she was my fated mate. Would he?
"The point I'm trying to make here, Son, is you're an alpha. The future of our pack. You can't be taking an omega as a mate."
"Our neighboring packs alpha has a daughter, shes also attending Alpha school. Her name is Louise. Her father and i, alpha Richard, have met and decided you two would he a good fit."
"If the alpha king approves it, we want to combine both packs and the lands."
"I don't see why he wouldn't approve it, though. He's getting old with age and no one to take his place. There was a rumor his only son was killed or ran off. No one is quite sure."
"But anyways, I have dinner arrangements for you and Louise tonight."
He put his hand on my shoulder. "It's for the best son."
End of flashback
I shook the memory away and repeated "its for the best. It's for the pack. "
I think I've said that thousands of times in my head over the last few years trying to convince myself.