Chapter 4 - I love you, I hate you (Zayn and Liam Fic)

Liams Pov

If i say i was feeling happy... that would be a lie i wasnt happy at all

I know confusing right? He just kissed me... the person i love just kissed me... why wouldnt i be happy? Because in the heat of the moment he pulled away

He said the most gruesome words ever

i dont love you ... i regret that and please stay away from me

Now im here confused and heartbroken just like what i was feeling when i was on Wolverhampton the feeling of being rejected came crashing down on me

But i was confused the moment he said those words hes eyes showed lies

I dont know who to believe myself or him but i knew i wasnt the only one who felt that amazing sparks on our lips as they met

But i dont know what to do anymore

Should i cry? Should i scream? Should i move on?

Nope i dont think i could move on im pathetic i know i dont really know him that much but he IS my purpose in life .... LIFE

Now that hes gone ... what do i have to lose

I promised myself if i ever found out my purpose and i succeeded on making myself happy i will erase all the negative thoughts in my mind

But i failed im more heartbroken than before ... if thats even possible

Now i feel worthless... maybe just maybe i could do one more thing for myself

If zayn doesnt want me near him then no one could ever could

it ... ill end

ar i went inside and wr

La

ending this ... but i figured zayn doesnt want me so i dont deserv

me thanks for being there when i was rejected and you welcomed me in your life even though

e that cutting was a mistake im sorry if im ending my life in pure tragedy im

g me laugh even if im really heartbroken i always laugh.. because your laugh i

life i just want you to know that i love you... i just love you no one not even me can explain why i love you... maybe its just fate... i don

u guys so much

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my head throbbing but it disappe

quickly going to the s

being affected by the water what is happening to me i loo

t my eyes are pitch black with a hint of red on

when it hit me i

m....

Vam